Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Yesterday I met Avery's dad, lets call him Ben, and we discussed how things would go.

It was a productive day. A great day even. I'm cautiously optimistic about the future. I know things can't change over night but we've made small steps in the right direction. We talked and learned things about each other that we never knew in the short time we were together.

It was a draining day. Physically, I had been up since 1pm on Sunday, as well as emotionally.

So what do I do from here? How will this work? I have never had to worry about Ben and his relationship with Avery. I have never had to worry about MY relationship with BEN. Like it or not, we ARE bonded for life. I do know that I want her to know him. Every little girl needs a dad in their life. He will be involved, as much as I allow. But how much do I allow? How will this dynamic work?

So many questions that I need to answer.

But, still, a great day.

1 comment:

Mom/Grandma said...

Very proud of you. Was not an easy decision!! Yay!!