Here's the deal

Remember that change I've been talking about?

Let's spell it out, shall we?!

I'm not happy with my job. I'll clarify, I'm not happy working night shift. I know, shocker right? I said before: I feel like I'm sitting back and watching life pass me by. Not ok. The fact remains that I NEED the extra pay I get working night shift at my current job. My financial situation wasn't stellar prior to getting pregnant, due in part to my divorce. Then I had Avery and moved and didn't work for 3 months. You get the picture. I would love to find a day shift job, something less stress and home by dinner every evening. Weekends and holidays off sounds divine as well. The weirdest thing: I always wanted a high stress job. Something I could jump in and get my hands dirty. The more critical, the better. Now that I've had Avery I don't care as much about that. In fact a low key job sounds delightful. I have enough stress in my life at home, I don't need it at my job too.

So, here's what I've had in the works.

Let me preface this. I've always wanted to travel. Travel nursing has always sparked my interest. I was with my ex-husband since high school and we were married right out of college. Built a house, settled down. Got divorced, got pregnant, moved closer to family. These are all reasons I felt traveling wouldn't work for me.

I've decided to look into the opportunity to do an assignment in Phoenix. I know, I know PHOENIX. Like ACROSS THE UNITED FREAKING STATES! The pay for travel nurses is....wow. My bestie lives in Phoenix. Win win right? I feel like this will be an opportunity to get my feet wet so to speak in travel nursing. Will I like it? Will I want to continue doing it? Will I just want to do an assignment and come home? I don't know. I just don't know. I'm leaving that part of it as a big "?".

Here's the way I look at it. 1. This will give me an opportunity to pay off some debt, giving me the opportunity to find a "normal" job. 2. I will have the chance to see my best friend and spend time with her and her daughter. 3. I've been desperately in need of a change. 4. If this is meant to happen, it will.

I've filled out applications, I've talked to recruiters. I have a few ducks I need to get in a row before we can talk placements and contracts. I'm working on it. I don't feel nervous, I'm excited for the possibilities and strangely at peace with it. Will this happen? I really hope so, but again if it's meant to happen it will.

I have NEVER done anything like this before in my life. I am a planner. So I really thought that planning a summer in Phoenix in itself would make me nervous let alone leaving what happens after that as a "what if".

For now I'm just trying to be patient and see what life has in store for us.